Picture it. Wisconsin- October 2014. I was at the Lutheran Association of Larger Churches annual conference where I was going to be talking to the pastors about CCWA and what God had accomplished through our first year of business. Two days later I was a guest speaker on a Google Hangout for Christian mompreneurs. In addition to all of that, I was in the middle of launching our Live Your Vision boot camp online. This was something we were doing for the first time. To say I was under a lot of pressure and stress is an understatement.
But wait! There’s more. In the middle of all that, I experienced a huge crisis. Now crisis is defined as, “a time of intense difficulty, trouble, or danger.” What was the cause of my intense difficulty? The man I was convinced was my future husband broke up with me. He wasn’t my soul mate; he was an incredibly convincing counterfeit. This crisis of a heartbreak was unlike any I had experienced in my 38 years, and it was happening at such a critical point in my vision.
All thoughts of work, planning, and preparation for my vision were replaced with feelings of rejection, abandonment, a loss of hope, and some anger at God asking, “Why even let him come into my life?” I felt a sense of failure and Satan found the opening he needed to add fertilizer to my rampantly growing mind weeds. That sense of rejection started to leak into thoughts about my work.
You see, I still launched our Live Your Vision bootcamp, I still gave my presentation, and I still appeared on the Google Hangout interview. But were those events wildly successful as I had hoped and prayed? Not even close. So now I was not only feeling like a failure in terms of my personal life, I was now feeling like a failure with CCWA. I was in a personal and professional crisis. All I wanted to do was shut down CCWA, move far away to Montana and get a job as a waitress at some truck stop restaurant. How’s that for dramatic and desperate!?
So where was the salvation, you ask? At the time, I couldn’t see the salvation. It didn’t come in the form I thought it would be. But now I can see how God’s salvation emerged through my crisis.
First, God brought me salvation through the friends He ushered into my life to help me through that difficult period. All of my friendships were taken to a whole deeper level. But what was so powerful was that these friends reflected the love and compassion of Jesus. They comforted me by reminding me of God’s promises and by praying with me and for me.
Second, salvation was found in His word. In the midst of my crisis one of my friends invited me to attend a weekly bible study. Now this friend had invited me before, but I always politely said no. But when she asked again, without hesitation, I said yes. And coincidentally (of course, we all know there are no coincidences with God), the bible study was about the life of Moses. So learning about a leader chosen by God and the failures and successes that go with leadership could not have been more timely in my current professional situation. Through this in-depth study of God’s character and His relationship with His people, my relationship with God was taken to a whole other level.
Finally, salvation came in the strength of the Holy Spirit, which enabled me to KEEP PRESSING ON. Was I putting in my normal amount of working hours? Not even close. Some days all I had was the energy to reply to emails….and be okay with that. Other days all I could muster was a prayer and fifteen minutes of devotion.
I learned I was in a time of grieving as a result of my crises, and that God was completely aware of the situation. A verse I would constantly read that comforted me was Psalm 34:17-18 (MSG):
Is anyone crying for help? God is listening, ready to rescue you. If your heart is broken, you’ll find God right there. If you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath.
Here’s the deal, visionaries. Big thinkers like you require big action, big decisions, and big risks. At some point you will be faced with a crisis or crises as you pursue your vision. When it comes, don’t assume it’s the end of your dream. You may have to slow down in your work, or take some time off to recover and regroup… and that’s okay!
But as a child of God, if or when you are in a crisis, I want you to start immediately looking for the salvation that only God can give. It may be in ways you least expect, He will speak to you through His people, His word, through books or music. The salvation will always follow a crisis! Not only do I know firsthand, but I end this blog with this promise:
God’s eye is on those who respect him, the ones who are looking for his love. He’s ready to come to their rescue in bad times. In lean times he keeps body and soul together. – Psalm 33: 18-19 (MSG)
As you pursue your vision, ALWAYS be looking for His love and respect Him and His commands- then He will be right there to bring you salvation when your crisis comes.
CCWA is committed to helping the Christian visionaries who need support turning their inspired ideas into action. Our services not only provide spiritual support and encouragement as clients experience crises, but we also work one-on-one with our “big-thinkers” to give them practical support, tools, and strategies to implement their ideas. Are you in need of both spiritual and practical help with your dreams and ideas for your future? We invite you to schedule a complimentary Vision Clarity Session to help you get clear on your vision and your biggest obstacle that is holding you back from living your vision. Click here to schedule your free session today!